矛盾

这个世界里....
充满着矛盾...
无论是人与人之间还是个人...
最近心情总是变换无常....
就因为某个原因...
我是很憧憬...很期待...
但我真的不喜欢这种感觉...
想要...却不喜欢...
这已经是我的矛盾了...


原来...
真的有些事情不知道的较好...
本来是充满信心...一无所惧的样子...
知道后...
却变得优柔寡断...不知所措....
真的好讨厌....
讨厌....
讨厌....


算了...
不懂要写什么了...
没什么心情...

November

already 4 weeks in this sem...

means the short sem going to end soon...

3 more weeks...

time gone so fast...

this week and next week going to face the midterm...

means i cant go back to play the game...

next game is the first round of playoff...><

no choice...

midterm is more important than basketball....

last weekend have played two matches...

one win and one loss...

first game...

my teammates and others said my performance not bad....

but second game...

i play like shit...

overall...

i not satisfy at all...

really wanna be better....

beside that...

my teammate also ask whether i wanna join the next tournament which help at end of this year...

around december...

i still thinking wanna play anot...

because i already always going back in these two sem..

next sem is my last sem...

wish to stay at kampar more...><

this sem...

i also seldom gather or crazy with my buddies...

since our timetable different with each others...

and i keep going back kl...

but...

i am enjoying the time when u with me...^^

last few days saw something on fb...

made me felt so fan...

why it able to cause me so fan...@@"

not only once...

is every times...

hope it can lost its affect to me as soon as possible....

be happy everyone~

expression

such a long time dint blog...

i think around one month already...

because of laziness...=X

now is the time to blog since i am in the blogging mood~XD

time passed so fast...

today is the 4th day of November 2010...

that means one month more...

2010 will be end...

and...my university career also getting to end soon....

actually really reluctant to graduate...

just two years time...

i get many friends here...

and we have many crazy memories....

i wont forget these memories in my life....

i appreciate it so much...

last week so unfortunate...

getting sick...

so suffered...

long time dint suffer like this...

keep dizzy and lying on the bed...

watching the ceiling...

thinking the time when i am getting sick...

mum will always come in my room...

now only know how good is it...><

the elder i am....

then complexity i facing...

even just play basketball...

also can till so complex....

the problem i facing almost made me give up from basketball...

but i found back the passion...XD

this week got two matches...

need to put all my effort to win it...

we cant lose anymore in group stage~

add oil~

september.....

long time dint come manage my blog already...

due to my final and laziness...

therefore...

this will be long long blog...XD

13 september 2010

this day is my birthday....

but i cant go to celebrate because this day also the first subject in final...T.T

on that day...

really dont have the study mood....

but still force myself to study...

after the exam...

straightly went back home to take nap...

i woke up around 45 minutes later...

then my mui mui sms me ask me to take dinner together...

i agreed go take dinner with them since there is no people date me to dinner...

after dinner...

atachi, bernard, ciejeng, sookteng, jolynn, yiqing,shumei and yikrui suddenly appeared...

and take a cake in front of me...

really surprise at all...

thanks them again at here...

besides that...

still need appreciate another four kai mui...

fuiming, yeesim,hoka and zhenying...

thank you!!!!

birthday celebration

birthday present

birthday present

15 september 2010

this day is not a special day...

but i having a nice day~ 

because this day we went ipoh sunway for beach party~

really enjoy so much with them~

all exam have finished and my sem break was starting~

i keep going to basketball after i back my home...

because there is a tournament which held by my team...

need to be helper of the tournament...

besides that, i also need to play the game or training...

therefore always stay at basketball court until 1 to 2 something...

it is a very nice experience for me...

enjoy it~XD

all the best~

alone

just finished the latest episode of  "cant buy me love"...

funny drama...

it accompany me past the time...

let me felt better....

i had thought past and the things which i am facing now...

if u facing some problems...

family and friends

which u will choose to talk to???

for me...

i will choose friends...

i know...

family is the always the best...

they will always help u no matter what u did...

but...

i wonder why i dont like to tell them when i really facing those problem...

maybe...

i dont like to let them worry about me...

or because they will keep sarcasm me....

anyway...

i will talk to my friends...

before...

i really thought i have many friends, many "brothers"...

i can talk to them whenever i am facing the problems...

somethings happened in this semester...

that thing had made me felt very helpless and troublesome...

i dont know how to do...

even dont know who to talk to...

really no idea at all...

i want talk to my family...

but at last i dint tell them...

because i dont want let them worry about me...

i will try to settle it myself...

but...

actually i really need somebody to stand with me at that time...

i really need it....

however...i dont know where is my friends....my "brothers"......

lastly...i told it to few people that i really trust...

there is two girls who is my "sisters" showed me about they really care of me...

i was really touching about it...

although we had some distance now...

i will appreciate it...

and...i miss the time with u guys....

i still wondering now...

who will around me when i am in troublesome....

next...

wanna talk about some friends...

not to offence u all...

just wanna say out my feeling...

i apologize to u all if u all feel i am offence u....

actually i dont like the ways u all kidding...

always sarcasm people "fish" things...

few times never mind...

why need to sarcasm it everyday??? 

is it that only joke for u all when u all "blow water" in yam cha??

sometimes....i really cant join in urs conversation....

seem like say many bad things in this blog...

try to write about good things next time~

cheers everyone~

and last...one of my good buddy birthday today~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KAI HAO~ 

now almost 3.30am...

just now i was lying on the bed...

but cant fall asleep...

maybe is i sleep lately these few days...

sleep at 4 everyday...

i think of many things when i lying on the bed...

before that...

i believe it is forever existing in somewhere of this world...

no matter is friendship or love...

i believe i can find these forever friendship and love...

i really believe it...

now....

i starting to doubt it...

everything have changed in this sem...

before that...

every nights i was at somebody house...

and...

i know that i was happy and crazy that time...

but because of some reasons...

i cant go their home every days...

besides that...

their home is a port for me...

when i am unhappy...

i go there and chat with them...

after having the funny conversations with them...

i can always go back my hostel with a smiling face...

it is amazing magic for me and it really work...

now...

everyday i stay at home online...

or go yam cha with friend...

not as happy as that time...

before that...

i got a gang of good buddies...

we always hang out to dinner, snooker or other...

at this sem...

we busy about own assignment,competition, FYP,or other...

somemore...

i sure playing basketball or choose to play basketball when they ask me to dinner or other exercises...

therefore...

i seldom join them in this sem...

i really miss the time with all of them....

i do...i really do...

this week is study week...

i have not study at the first day...

i also dont know what am i doing...

tomorrow...MUST STUDY!!!!

no excuses anymore...

lastly...

i am missing someone....><

yesterday back kampar from kl

i think i will back kl again after final

because the ysl league was over

my team had lost to a strong team

but in the game

we still fighting till last minute

we never give up although the opponent was leading 1x points in the half time

at last

we lost 5 points

it is unfortunately

in this game

i knew that i really not good enough

i cant in the court when it is important time

i really need to improve myself

next time i want to be the decisive player in the game

next competition is held after my final

so now just concentrate on my study first

after the game

i went club with my other basketball friends in kl

it is my first time to club in kl

erm

but it is not nice as my expectation

really disappointing about that

the club has closed at around 3

then we went mamak which near our house

and that time

i dont know why they so high or can say crazy

they planned to sit till morning

and straight go play basketball

i has notice it clearly that i wont join because i really very tired

but they still keep me there and dint take me back

i keep waiting at there

and at 6am

i really exploded

i lose my temper

finally they had take me back

my dad had asked me whether i got girlfriend

i said dont have

then he asked me to find one when i am studying

because it is difficult to get one when i work

i knew its truth

but

i think i wont get in this year

because i am quite busy and always need to go back kl for competition

actually i really hope to find one when i saw many couples walk together and show their sweetie

i really jealous><