心情日记

上个星期四

去医院探望我的姑丈

一个对我有恩的亲戚

没有他

可能现在我就上着社会大学了

一起车祸

令他进院

但今天好像出院了

祝他早日康复

当我去探望他时

他还一直问我学业如何

毕业后打算怎样

有点感动

因为他受伤了却还惦记着我的前途

除此之外

妈妈也和我讨论关于我毕业后的计划

她说要继续供我读

我拒绝了

因为

她已经老了

我不想让她再为我负担了

至于平安夜，圣诞节，拆礼日

都只是在家度过

因为要帮妈妈炸饼

虽然很不想帮

因为真的很辛苦

很闲

而且现在是我最后一次sembreak

很想只在家颓废颓废

但没办法咯

妈妈这么辛苦都是为了家

只好帮忙咯

有那么一个朋友

最近失恋了

看他样子

还蛮伤的

希望他早日康复....XD

另外一个

失恋了好一阵子

但却还不能放下

还必须靠安眠药的帮助入眠

希望他可以早日放下咯

而我自己

只能说在错的时间遇见对的人是悲哀

更多是无奈

你在我的心里

已经占有一个非常重要的位置

心情日记

原来

回来的时间刚好

回来的第二天就是冬至

但冬至的代价就是不能睡到自然醒

因为妈妈要我帮她买东西

到晚餐

与一家人一起吃晚餐

感觉真好

天伦之乐就是世界上最幸福的事

好好珍惜

今天

姐姐带一个男生回家吃饭

不过不是男朋友

应该是追求者吧

不懂她会不会换男友咧

好奇....=X

应该不会吧

她和现任的都已经蛮久了

虽然赚得钱不会好多

但是我相信他真的蛮喜欢我姐姐的

我本身是不支持她换咯

算了吧

不关我事

不知不觉

算是离开大城市的生活差不多要三年了

想到要重新适应这种生活

感觉就有点糟糕...@@"

忽然间不知道之前的十八年如何度过

但还有半年

半年后才慢慢适应与面对咯

船到桥头自然直

但说真的

真的很不舍得放弃这种生活

自由自在,悠悠在在地生活

而且

现在许多很好的死党

毕业后

应该也没什么机会再见了....>.<"

思念是一种幸福的忧伤，

因为有了距离，思念才泉涌而出；

思念出自于彼此，那是幸福的，甜蜜的

悲哀是因为单向的思念，带着苦涩

抄自一个自认才子的部落格...XD

我觉得这两段说得很好

完全把我的心声说了出来

双方面的思念的确是很幸福,很甜蜜

相反

单方面的思念却是另一种感受

我对你的思念

你收到嘛....

但我却在想是否有那么一秒

我曾在你脑中出现过....

梦

今天

出乎意料地早起(其实也不算很早...九点多)

主要是因为要晒衣

第二个原因是因为睡不好

因为做了一两个恶梦

吓的我爬起身   >.<

不懂是不是因为与那几个谈到太兴奋了  =X

明天要回KL了

这是我最后一次的sem break

当我再次回来时

就是我在金宝的最后一个学期

时间飞逝

Y1S1就好像是才不久前几个月

这可能就是快乐时间过得特别快吧

说真的

我喜欢在金宝的日子

自由自在的

喜欢去哪就去

一点都不需顾虑太多

虽然现在在家也蛮自由

但怎样还是要想老妈或老姐交待

另外

每天跟一班朋友打球,喝茶,吹水,唱K,snooker...................

真的好享受与朋友一起的感觉

虽然在KL也是有蛮多的朋友

但在家我还算是宅男

比较少出街

都是躲在家或只是去打打球

这两年半的生活

真的犹如一场梦

希望这场梦永远都不醒

但是天下无不散之筵席

梦总会有醒的一天

这两天有点不习惯

因为你不在

这还是第一次

对你的思念是有增无减

那晚

对我来讲

这是一场梦

应该是我在这年里不能忘记的回忆

最近好像很勤劳地blog

可能是因为最近发生的事情比较多

时间也比较多

所以多了点时间胡思乱想吧

无题

身体精神都处于疲累的状态

睡意也已经侵蚀我的意识

但只要闭上眼睛

脑袋却不受控制地胡思乱想

思念一直涌上心头

只能在回忆里找寻你的身影,声音与你的一切一切

好久好久

都没试过那么地认真

自己也不敢相信

一直抑制

但却不断地膨胀

某些东西

令我想了又想

猜了又猜

得到的答案却是无解

心里其实存在千言万语

但不知如何表达

也不敢完全在这写出

我的思绪是如此复杂

心意却如此简单

就是我想你

我爱你

恩

最近这里好像乌云密布

没办法

这是我抒发的方式

敬请原谅

流星

不知什么日子

天空划过许多流星

还以为只出现一阵子

结果已迟了的我还能有幸见到许多颗的流星

望你能在这时刻伴我左右

但只是一阵失望

听着“彩虹“   

望着流星

气氛合得刚刚好

只能暗暗享受

与你在同一片天空下

坐在同一个地方

呼吸着一样的空气

看着一样的星空

一颗颗的流星

忆起那段一直追看流星的日子

一班朋友

上那暗暗的桥上

把车停在路旁

躺在那凹凸的马路上

望着一望无际的星空

一颗颗的星星挂在夜空

仿佛一伸手就能触碰到

接着

流星忽然间飞逝

每个人都在惊讶

那是否是所谓的流星

第二颗流星再次划过

终于肯定那是流星

过后

躺在那儿

一面听着火车声

一面谈天

一面期待第三颗，第四颗

某些事与某些原因

从此这活动消失于我们之间

虽然如此

这段回忆绝对不会在我脑海里消失

这是属于我们的独家回忆

我.......

想念那时候

end of short sem

after today...

the short sem ended...

and this is my last sem break...@@"

time gone so fast...

the first day i came kampar just like happened yesterday...

today...

is the last paper in this sem...

i done a very super duper mistake....

i .......i.........i.......

forgot to bring calculator!!!!!!

this is a calculation paper...

then...

no choice....

hand calculate...

some more the question so tough...

dont know how to die...

hope can pass lo...

hope can get c...

yes...i am greedy...>.<

this week out with jim and seng frequently...

it is a great time with them~

we talks about basketball, girls and many many other things~

it is really very fun...

looking forward for wednesday~

dont aeroplane ya~XD

it is a bit late to us...

because next sem will be seng and my last sem...

cant gather for more time...

but time is not so important..

just appreciate the time we having~^^

err...

tomorrow going back kl again...

for some reasons...

semi final has been canceled...

actually i am quite disappointed...

because straight give up the chance to play final...

but never mind lo...

i believe i still got chance in future~

tomorrow is playing 3th/4th place...

i want get a bronze medal!!!!

add oil!!!!

god bless me!!!

erm...

someone getting in sick recently...

she is quite suffering...>.<

hope the bacteria can get away from her as soon as possible...

lastly...i miss u....

2010的最后一个月....

今天是2010年里的最后一个月的第四天....

今天忽然间有那种心情blog...

在这静静的夜里...

听着周杰伦的歌blog...

感觉真不错....

等下的夜晚八点...

我将会在kl继续进行我的比赛...

这一场是四强赛...

只要打胜了就有机会在自己的主场捧起冠军....

虽然....

这有点困难....

哦....

不是有点...

是非常困难...

但是...

都已经到了这个地步....

就只好拼命地拿出120%的实力与斗志...

不然肯定没有机会...

加油吧!!!

很快地...

这个short sem已经完结了....

下个星期...

就是final了....

不过...

还是没有进入那种要战斗的状态....@@"

不懂要怎样死.....>.<"

最近....

我心里住了一个人...

记得上个星期....

发生了一些事情....

我的心真的很痛...

但我不能做些什么....

也不懂我能够做些什么...

或许太认真...

也害怕被伤害...

所以现在还不敢说明自己的感受....

不喜欢这懦弱的自己.....

矛盾

这个世界里....
充满着矛盾...
无论是人与人之间还是个人...
最近心情总是变换无常....
就因为某个原因...
我是很憧憬...很期待...
但我真的不喜欢这种感觉...
想要...却不喜欢...
这已经是我的矛盾了...


原来...
真的有些事情不知道的较好...
本来是充满信心...一无所惧的样子...
知道后...
却变得优柔寡断...不知所措....
真的好讨厌....
讨厌....
讨厌....


算了...
不懂要写什么了...
没什么心情...

November

already 4 weeks in this sem...

means the short sem going to end soon...

3 more weeks...

time gone so fast...

this week and next week going to face the midterm...

means i cant go back to play the game...

next game is the first round of playoff...><

no choice...

midterm is more important than basketball....

last weekend have played two matches...

one win and one loss...

first game...

my teammates and others said my performance not bad....

but second game...

i play like shit...

overall...

i not satisfy at all...

really wanna be better....

beside that...

my teammate also ask whether i wanna join the next tournament which help at end of this year...

around december...

i still thinking wanna play anot...

because i already always going back in these two sem..

next sem is my last sem...

wish to stay at kampar more...><

this sem...

i also seldom gather or crazy with my buddies...

since our timetable different with each others...

and i keep going back kl...

but...

i am enjoying the time when u with me...^^

last few days saw something on fb...

made me felt so fan...

why it able to cause me so fan...@@"

not only once...

is every times...

hope it can lost its affect to me as soon as possible....

be happy everyone~

expression

such a long time dint blog...

i think around one month already...

because of laziness...=X

now is the time to blog since i am in the blogging mood~XD

time passed so fast...

today is the 4th day of November 2010...

that means one month more...

2010 will be end...

and...my university career also getting to end soon....

actually really reluctant to graduate...

just two years time...

i get many friends here...

and we have many crazy memories....

i wont forget these memories in my life....

i appreciate it so much...

last week so unfortunate...

getting sick...

so suffered...

long time dint suffer like this...

keep dizzy and lying on the bed...

watching the ceiling...

thinking the time when i am getting sick...

mum will always come in my room...

now only know how good is it...><

the elder i am....

then complexity i facing...

even just play basketball...

also can till so complex....

the problem i facing almost made me give up from basketball...

but i found back the passion...XD

this week got two matches...

need to put all my effort to win it...

we cant lose anymore in group stage~

add oil~

september.....

long time dint come manage my blog already...

due to my final and laziness...

therefore...

this will be long long blog...XD

13 september 2010

this day is my birthday....

but i cant go to celebrate because this day also the first subject in final...T.T

on that day...

really dont have the study mood....

but still force myself to study...

after the exam...

straightly went back home to take nap...

i woke up around 45 minutes later...

then my mui mui sms me ask me to take dinner together...

i agreed go take dinner with them since there is no people date me to dinner...

after dinner...

atachi, bernard, ciejeng, sookteng, jolynn, yiqing,shumei and yikrui suddenly appeared...

and take a cake in front of me...

really surprise at all...

thanks them again at here...

besides that...

still need appreciate another four kai mui...

fuiming, yeesim,hoka and zhenying...

thank you!!!!

birthday celebration

birthday present

birthday present

15 september 2010

this day is not a special day...

but i having a nice day~ 

because this day we went ipoh sunway for beach party~

really enjoy so much with them~

all exam have finished and my sem break was starting~

i keep going to basketball after i back my home...

because there is a tournament which held by my team...

need to be helper of the tournament...

besides that, i also need to play the game or training...

therefore always stay at basketball court until 1 to 2 something...

it is a very nice experience for me...

enjoy it~XD

all the best~

alone

just finished the latest episode of  "cant buy me love"...

funny drama...

it accompany me past the time...

let me felt better....

i had thought past and the things which i am facing now...

if u facing some problems...

family and friends

which u will choose to talk to???

for me...

i will choose friends...

i know...

family is the always the best...

they will always help u no matter what u did...

but...

i wonder why i dont like to tell them when i really facing those problem...

maybe...

i dont like to let them worry about me...

or because they will keep sarcasm me....

anyway...

i will talk to my friends...

before...

i really thought i have many friends, many "brothers"...

i can talk to them whenever i am facing the problems...

somethings happened in this semester...

that thing had made me felt very helpless and troublesome...

i dont know how to do...

even dont know who to talk to...

really no idea at all...

i want talk to my family...

but at last i dint tell them...

because i dont want let them worry about me...

i will try to settle it myself...

but...

actually i really need somebody to stand with me at that time...

i really need it....

however...i dont know where is my friends....my "brothers"......

lastly...i told it to few people that i really trust...

there is two girls who is my "sisters" showed me about they really care of me...

i was really touching about it...

although we had some distance now...

i will appreciate it...

and...i miss the time with u guys....

i still wondering now...

who will around me when i am in troublesome....

next...

wanna talk about some friends...

not to offence u all...

just wanna say out my feeling...

i apologize to u all if u all feel i am offence u....

actually i dont like the ways u all kidding...

always sarcasm people "fish" things...

few times never mind...

why need to sarcasm it everyday??? 

is it that only joke for u all when u all "blow water" in yam cha??

sometimes....i really cant join in urs conversation....

seem like say many bad things in this blog...

try to write about good things next time~

cheers everyone~

and last...one of my good buddy birthday today~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KAI HAO~ 

now almost 3.30am...

just now i was lying on the bed...

but cant fall asleep...

maybe is i sleep lately these few days...

sleep at 4 everyday...

i think of many things when i lying on the bed...

before that...

i believe it is forever existing in somewhere of this world...

no matter is friendship or love...

i believe i can find these forever friendship and love...

i really believe it...

now....

i starting to doubt it...

everything have changed in this sem...

before that...

every nights i was at somebody house...

and...

i know that i was happy and crazy that time...

but because of some reasons...

i cant go their home every days...

besides that...

their home is a port for me...

when i am unhappy...

i go there and chat with them...

after having the funny conversations with them...

i can always go back my hostel with a smiling face...

it is amazing magic for me and it really work...

now...

everyday i stay at home online...

or go yam cha with friend...

not as happy as that time...

before that...

i got a gang of good buddies...

we always hang out to dinner, snooker or other...

at this sem...

we busy about own assignment,competition, FYP,or other...

somemore...

i sure playing basketball or choose to play basketball when they ask me to dinner or other exercises...

therefore...

i seldom join them in this sem...

i really miss the time with all of them....

i do...i really do...

this week is study week...

i have not study at the first day...

i also dont know what am i doing...

tomorrow...MUST STUDY!!!!

no excuses anymore...

lastly...

i am missing someone....><

yesterday back kampar from kl

i think i will back kl again after final

because the ysl league was over

my team had lost to a strong team

but in the game

we still fighting till last minute

we never give up although the opponent was leading 1x points in the half time

at last

we lost 5 points

it is unfortunately

in this game

i knew that i really not good enough

i cant in the court when it is important time

i really need to improve myself

next time i want to be the decisive player in the game

next competition is held after my final

so now just concentrate on my study first

after the game

i went club with my other basketball friends in kl

it is my first time to club in kl

erm

but it is not nice as my expectation

really disappointing about that

the club has closed at around 3

then we went mamak which near our house

and that time

i dont know why they so high or can say crazy

they planned to sit till morning

and straight go play basketball

i has notice it clearly that i wont join because i really very tired

but they still keep me there and dint take me back

i keep waiting at there

and at 6am

i really exploded

i lose my temper

finally they had take me back

my dad had asked me whether i got girlfriend

i said dont have

then he asked me to find one when i am studying

because it is difficult to get one when i work

i knew its truth

but

i think i wont get in this year

because i am quite busy and always need to go back kl for competition

actually i really hope to find one when i saw many couples walk together and show their sweetie

i really jealous><

first time blog with my broken English

please don't laugh of me if i do any mistake

last night was the first game of second round playoff

my opponent is freaking strong

my team was crushing defeat by them><

i was disappointed with my performance

this game has showed me what is my weaknesses

it is good for me

as i can improve it and do it better next game

hope that second game we can defeat them to give surprise to everyone

these two days i was at kl

and always late went back home

last night back at 3 and just now back at 2

so bad i am

but having great conversation with my friends^^

today(28 august) so many people birthday

greet them again at here

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

and later i need to meet up the insurance guy

sienz

can't sleep well again

erm

stop at here

good night everyone

苦尽甘来

好久没来打理了

最近好衰咧

很多不好的事情一直发生

最令我不爽的是

拜六比赛

拜五扭到脚

害我不能比赛

赌烂到

不过我队还是胜了

恭喜他们~

那个两年前的事情

还在一直困扰着我

律师行，保险公司

一直打电话给我

问我这，问我那

烦 =.=

这个sem

好多东西都变了好多

没什么东西能做

只好都适应咯

希望大家开开心心就好~

First Time

这是第一次在这网站blogging

因为最近发生太多事

只好寻找一个方式来抒发

希望大家支持支持咯

这个sem是year3 sem1

大学生涯的最后一年了

一个字

忙

忙assignment

忙mid-term test

忙final year project

><

除此之外

还有那两件麻烦事

新鲜那件还好

旧那件又还没settle

就是烦

但

不要想太多吧

天无绝人之路

船到桥头自然直

总会有解决的一天

当作是磨练吧

加油~