Thursday, December 29, 2011

古城之旅

今年的圣诞节
没去那儿
就只在家里度过
差点就闷死了
还好约了中学同学在拆礼日那天去马六甲逛逛
那天
就是昨天
早上六点就起床了
还比平常上班的时间早呢
过后就在我家附近的篮球场等他们过来
他们到后就正式启程了
由于第一次驾我的车上highway
所以我驾得都蛮快的
一度跑到一百五十
有一段时间风太大了
搞得我控制不了我的车
还蛮恐怖的
费了一个小时多
我们终于到了古城马六甲了
一去到我们就找一间点心店
还蛮好吃的

过后的行程都是围绕着吃
Cendol,鸡粒饭,千层蛋糕,榴櫣cendol,和satay lok lok
吃的真的太饱了
这次的旅程还不错
没试过与这gang朋友一起去旅行过
希望还有下次吧
在这短暂的一日游
我想起一段回忆
真的很想回到过去
很想再和他们一起旅行
但应该可能性应该很低了

就这样...=)

Monday, December 19, 2011

久违了


差点忘记我还有一个属于我的天地
虽然明天还要工作
虽然现在的时间已经不早了
十一点多了
但对以前的我来说
这时候只不过是开始活动的时间
现在
更多的是考虑明天是否又精神上班
不过
我还是决定更新一下
不让这个部落格再潜水了(尽量)

翻开记录
上一次更新我的内容
原来已经是半年的事了
这半年里
我过得不好不坏
没什么高潮低迭的
比较刺激的是在自家球场举办的比赛
得了个第四名
不太满意这个结果
而且自己的表现也算得上是烂
希望下次比赛会表现得更好吧

最近的生活
烦恼比较多
不过大多数都不是在烦自己的问题
主要的是人事上的问题
篮球场上的,家里的,公司的....
真的好累
虽说有人的地方就有是非
但当自己亲身经历时
虽然不管自己的事
但已搞得身心疲累了
生活难道就不能简简单单嘛...

即将就要在sunway修读ACCA了
压力肯定不小
但就这样面对吧
我相信我能做到的
加油吧....

这篇文章
大概大概叙述下最近的生活
无时无刻
都在想念那些年的日子
无论是中学或大学
这段时间都是我最开心的日子
真的很想回到从前
但现实真的很残酷
时针只能往前走....

当我知道你做了那个决定
我的心真的很低落
那代表我们已经很难很难再见面了
更别说让我约你
我想你会过得很好的
祝福你...

Monday, June 27, 2011

心情日记

现在是时候要来扫下这部落格的灰尘了...
按照我的习惯
都是因为发生了某些不如意的事
我才会来发泄下吧
没错
这篇部落格我也是想来发泄一下
顺便也写写我的最近
或许我没有很多的peeeeepsssss....

最近这几个星期
都有点小忙
忙到没太多的时间对着我的电脑
忙着帮一位队友办些事
学着大胆地向陌生人propose计划
有点像之前FYP时的survey
有试过成功
也有试过被拒绝
不知不觉
明天应该就是最后一天帮忙了吧
虽然没有太多的回酬
但也是不错的体验与经验
过后当然是忙着帮忙举办篮球比赛咯
上个星期六
比赛也圆满结束了
我的队友们得到了亚军
但很明显
大家都很不开心
因为他们都想着要拿冠军的
这次后
不知几时才有这样的机会呢
希望那时我会在队伍里
而且是扮演举足轻重的一员....

上个星期五
我拿到了我人生的第一辆车
新myvi
还蛮美的
别人以为我有钱,好命
却不知道牺牲了我以后很多的娱乐...>.<
单单车的费用已经差不多占据了我薪水的一半了
而且这辆车也令到我有点"不爽"
因为某某人答应做我的保证人
但是到需要她签名的时候
却要求我真的没个月要准时还贷款
我在想你是不是真的那么不相信你自己的弟弟咧?
难道我真的还不能让你们放心吗?
我已不是小了啦
我清楚知道自己在做着什么以及那些后果
真的很“度兰“!!!!
还令到我打比赛时不能专注...
弄伤我的左手与左脚...=/

我好想念大学的生活呢...
好想念那班朋友
你们过得好吗?
已经没有机会再有那种日子了
只能在回忆中
偷偷品尝怀念的滋味...

这个星期五
是我的开工日
希望一切顺利吧~

Sunday, May 29, 2011

新生活

不知不觉
回到KL已差不多两个星期了
已经慢慢开始适应现在的生活了
开始慢慢渡过那难熬的过渡期
当然
脑袋还会闪过那些美好的回忆
心还会牵挂那些酒肉知己
但是
终归要回到现实
那些已回不去的从前
就把它放在心里
有空时
拿出来回味
也是不错的消遣
朋友们
你们过得还好吗?

这两个星期
只重复几个活动
看戏,上网,玩psp,打篮球,帮忙举办篮球赛,喝茶,睡觉
而且是总在睡
好像要把之前不够睡的都补充回来...@@"
但是我想从这个星期开始应该不能再那样颓废了
因为要开始找工作
而且现在也算是找到一份兼职
我也不希望再这样颓废下去
害怕会颓废惯了
不想做工
我想买车
不做工
哪有能力买呢
只好逼自己勤劳点
明天有面试
不懂会怎样呢
这算是人生中正式的面试吧
尽力而为吧
加油

最近
看到别人都在比赛
但自己只能做旁观者
真的不好受
很想站在那球场上
享受着球迷们的喝彩声
下一个比赛时在六月尾
真的很想快点到
期待
带着一点点恐惧
期待着再次与这班战友并肩作战
恐惧是不懂自己表现如何
尤其是在久疏战阵后
还是那句
尽力而为

还有个小插曲
我的其中一个队友
在某一场比赛中发生意外
结果手断了
骨头都跑了出来
虽然我没亲眼看到那白色的物体
但是看到他需要别人帮他撑着他那淌着血的手与呻吟声时
心是真的在颤抖着.....

Thursday, May 19, 2011

两个重要的人

今天是我离开金宝的第二天
心里还是充满不舍
想的还是在金宝与一群朋友一起疯的画面
想到今后再也不能有这种生活
以后只能不停地工作...>.<
现在正是一段过渡期
我也不懂这段过渡期会有多久的期限

其实最不舍得的还是两个人
在我最悲伤最无助的时候
我总会先想起他们
就算他们不能帮到我什么
但我都会向他们倾诉
和他们谈完后
我的心情就会莫名其妙的变得晴朗
在那一刻
我曾经天真地以为
我们的感情会一直到永远
我真的如此深信着
曾经
他们的房间是我的第二个家
我不时都会去与他们谈天
但因为要兼顾其他人的感受
我只好少去他们家
到最后完全没去找他们
虽然如此
我还是相信
我们的感情能够继续维持的

现在
我们的感情变得没以前那么好了
这是肯定的
以前
我很确定
我在他们心目中绝对占有一席
但现在我可能只是微不足道的一员
心里真的好难受
有开心有不开心
开心的是他们找到了很多知心的朋友
(虽然我早就知道他们的人缘很好)
不开心的是我变得可有可无
我相信这就是人的天性吧
自私

曾经我以为自己会是一个潇洒,豁达的人
其实我不是
尤其是在自己重视的人与物面前
我也是一个小气,自私的人
我讨厌这样的自己
但就是控制不了
最大的问题是
我只会把我的感觉放在心中
之前还能告诉他们
现在谁也不能说
只能在这里写写...

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

最后

上个星期四
趁着大家还有一点空暇的时间
举办了一场班聚
虽说是班聚
但仅仅只是十五人参加
这是美中不足的一点
算了吧
这十五人的聚会
也是蛮有趣的
因为大家都熟悉
彼此都能聊天
不会有谁被冷落了
我想
这真的是最后的聚会了吧
当然
我们还有期盼已久的毕旅
但是心是矛盾的
毕旅的到来
意味着我们相聚的日子正式进入倒计时

上个星期五
与两个篮球死党去高歌"几首"
第一次,也是最后一次
因为已经没机会了
下次
在槟城的下来吉隆坡吧
从九点多唱到两点
其中一位怕我们嫌贵
结果叫了另两位朋友来分担一下费用
但说实在
我真的不太介意
出去玩就准备要花钱了
很感激他
因为他从来都不和我们计较
尤其是钱财方面
搞到我还蛮不好意思

这是大学生涯的最后几个星期
从此
又要回到去大城市的生活
习惯了三年的平静
要重新习惯那习惯了十九年的生活
还有点困难
重点是
我不舍得
不是这边颓废的生活
是在这三年里结下的友谊
曾经的1355,那三个来自柔佛的兄弟,沙巴妹,一起上课的champion group,因篮球而邂逅的每个好朋友....
离别总是难受,难过....
你们给与我的回忆
即使以后我患了老人痴呆症
我也不会忘记~XD

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

week 14

this week is last week in this sem
also the last week in my university life
but this week like study week for me since there is not much classes in this week
i heard many of my friends start to do revision for the final
it made me feel a bit pressure because i still dont have the motivation to start...=\
i totally treat this two weeks as my holidays
kinda enjoy it although it is bored and meaningless...=X
i think i wont have the same time like this after i graduate.....
at last i decided to work after graduate
and will take ACCA by part time
because dont want my mum work so hard for me
it is the time for her to rest and enjoy her life
and i really worry about her high blood pressure....>.<

besides that, i took my medical check report on monday
i got the worst result between my friends...=(
my cholesterol and liver has over the standard level
need take care and control for my diet
but i wonder is it affected by late sleep because i late sleep before the day i went for check
erm...
need to eat more vegetables...eat less meat and egg...@@"
OMG.....
nothing to do...it is for my health
try my best to control it lo
i also considering that should i go for the B型肝炎 injection...
it need to take 3 injections
i do feel scare....................................................>.<
give some suggestion to me please....=(

Saturday, April 9, 2011

random

yesterday i went to ipoh with my classmates
we gathered in mcd at 10am
and we got free mcd breakfast because one of my classmate got coupon
we sing k, watch movie and had buffet for our dinner
the movie we watched called just go with it
it is a nice and funny movie~recommend to watch
i kinda enjoy it and had fun with them
after the day full with craziness, fun and happiness
today i felt emptiness and loneliness
because i just facing my computer and psp
but still appreciate that two basketball buddies date me for brunch and dinner
it had reduce my loneliness 
thank you very much
next week i think i being alone 
because many of friends going back hometown or going to KL for Jogoya's promotion

again, i talking about the nice memories
because the memories is always the best
i really miss that time 
i find them everyday
i have no secret with them
what i also can talk with them
we can talk non-stop
they made me happy even though i am in bad mood
but because of some reasons
i seldom go find them and become dint find them now
therefore something changed and it is some strange between us
how good if the time can go back
but it is impossible......
there is no "if" in this world
the time will never ever go back
why i can so lame....
keep thinking for the past....
i should keep thinking and planning for my future...>.<

in these difficult moment
i really hope somebody besides me...
and my heart fighting for something
hope it will be ok soon
lastly...pray for those soul who need to....
since saw so many unfortunate news in newspaper recently...
pray...

Thursday, March 31, 2011

random

上个星期
与几个同学去马六甲玩
那几天一直都在吃
还去了那儿新的水上乐园
晒到半死
忽然间黑掉很多(虽然本来就很黑)
过了差不多一个星期
背后还在脱皮
好难看呢....>.<
总的来说
这次的旅程还算不错的
虽然有些时候有点被忽略的感觉...=/

在这旅程中
发现到有些东西已变了质
想起以前
再看看现在
只能叹息时间真的能改变好多东西

我真的好想念那段疯狂的日子
我真的以为有些东西真的不会改变的
我.....还是太天真了....
或许重感情的人就会这样吧
是不是应该要改变了呢
不要再那么重感情了...
算了吧
我相信我怎样对人,人家就会怎样对我
对得起自己就好
看开点

就顺其自然吧(好像在逃避现实)

暂时就写到这边吧....

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

an insomnia night

uhhhhhemmm
what is the time now?
almost 5am 
normally i am sleeping on the bed now
but today cant sleep
due to i slept too much yesterday
because of this reason
i skipped two classes   =.=
therefore what am i doing now??
drinking beer and blogging   
first time try to do this
not bad~XD

seem like i have neglected my blog for a long time
actually many things to write
but but but.....
lazy....=X
so what i done for the last few weeks?
first, i got a speaker, external hard disk and a wireless mouse~
these few accessories have cost me RM 400...=.=
but i dint regret at all la...
i quite enjoy with them especially my speaker~~~woohooo~~~NICE!!!!!
second, i have done my mid term test
there are no more mid term test in my life.....(otherwise i failed this sem...)
and now...just left last assignment in this sem and in my life
i no need to do any assignment for my university life
but will for work bah...>.<
third, i tried the mcd breakfast with my friends
really not bad...quite worth....
just go for it~ =D

forth, my kampar open tournament had officially end
these is not a nice memory for me
because i just grab one win in four games
some more the opponent not that strong
just is my team weak...
of course...i not that well also...>.<
in these few games
i earn many experiences
it is not easy to manage one team
i think this can apply in many areas 
not only for basketball but for business
besides that
i also know my weaknesses   >.<
personal skills is not that big problem except my 3 points shooting
the biggest problem is my mentality
it is SO SO SO SO SO bad....
need to improve it a lot...>.<
fifth, in a saturday
i pick up a call from my sister while i am napping
she ask me go back home because my mum going back home from Taiwan that week
but i reject it
since i am tired to go back and i need to busy
but i know these is excuses as i lazy to go back
sorry mum....=(
i am sei sui zai....
my sister also ask me what i busy for?
i answer i busy for assignment but she ask me back said izit i busy for pak tor....
swt.....=.=llllllllll
she said my dad ask she open the photo in my facebook profile and show him who is my girlfriend wor.....
swt again.....=.=lllllllllll

sixth, tsunami has attacked japan lately
human being was so tiny when facing the nature
a normal description:a human life just cheap like an ant life
nothing different
the only different is our family, relatives or friends will sad or even cry for our leave...
future really unpredictable
just appreciate everything u having now
to appreciate u still can breath in this earth
to appreciate u still can smile today
to appreciate u still can cry today
to appreciate u still can say i love u to the one u love
not only ur boyfriend or girlfriend
and also ur family
but....i really cant say these word from my mouth to let them know...
just write here....dad,mum,bro,sis,3 of my sister daughter......
I LOVE U ALL

just now watched a old movie act by andy lau...
it called 爱情梦幻号
i have watched it few times before
but i got the same feeling also
it is a nice, romantic and lam movie.....
sometimes really hope there is someone watch this kind movie with me together....
then i can hug her tightly...=(
never mind...
find her in my dream...XD
i am going to malacca on this thursday with my classmate
hope that this will a fun trip~  =)
it is last few weeks gather with u guys....
no matter is my classmates, coursemates, or my basketball friends.
i always appreciate the time when we together

its time to stop le
what a long blog~~XD
please leave some comments here or chat box when u saw my blog post...
thank you~
take care~   =)

Friday, March 4, 2011

7 weeks

today is the last day of week 7(formal)
this means i am going to graduate from utar after 7 weeks
how good if the time can stop
i can get more time to gather with the kampar buddies
yesterday(friday) having discussion for FYP for almost 12 hours....@@
FINALLY WE DONE IT!!!!
we spent about 10 months to finish it
we search articles, to set the tittle, to read and understand those long long articles, do the thesis from chapter 1 to chapter 5, to set the questionnaires, keep going inside out in office just for supervisor, meeting in supervisor, scolded by tutor and lecturer(is the same person), to distribute the questionnaire by shop to shop in kampar and ipoh, to do analysis for our questionnaire, first presentation for our proposal, VIVA
huuuuuuu~
feel like relax after all these were done
really need to thanks my dear groupmates very much
seriously u all have done very great job because having a lazy groupmate like me...=X
no matter what grade we get in FYP
i am loving u all~=D
FYP done means there is no discussion for this group
because one of the groupmate is different class with us this sem
and i only one class same with 3 of them
i will miss the time badly since we same group from year 1
just now had yam cha session with them
it is a great time
i enjoy it so much
i think we dont have this kind of session since we take FYP(if i no wrong.....)

after thinking of past
now wanna think about future
after graduate
most likely i will proceed for professional papers
just.....struggling wanna work while study...
or take full time course
family ask me to take full time course to finished it as soon as possible
it is a bit pressure for me since the professional papers is not that easy
professional papers are different with high school and even university
it will be much more tough....@@
really no idea at all
what should i decide for my future...
arrrrgggghhhhhh....>.<

Monday, February 28, 2011

“你”

现在已经一点多了...
很累很睏...
但是还是先把这篇写好...

对于"你"
真的千言万语涌上心头
但仅仅局限于咽喉
想要写出
却也不知从何说起
与"你"的相识
从一个幼稚的打赌开始
与你那段浅薄的缘分
时间定格在两个月
而过后的一切
都只是为自己的不成熟买单...
得知某个消息后
以为是上天再给我一次机会
再次邂逅
你的身边已有另一个"他"
不停地说服自己把"你"忘掉
只要一听到"你"的消息或遇见"你"
却无法自我控制
就像最近的那一次
见到"你"后
整个人都失魂落魄的
如果说你是我生命中的一个过客
那你肯定是最不可缺少的那一个
少了你
我不再是我
我不会懂得珍惜.....认真...
我希望"你"的幸福是从我身上得到
但是这应该是不可能的事了
只好祝福有那么的一个人能给"你""你"要的幸福
我也会找到那份属于我的幸福

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

低潮

刚刚和classmate吃团圆饭
虽然新年接近结束
但是这种聚会还是不错的
感觉真的很不错
想到这次是我们班最后一次的聚会
心里真的有点不舍
应该没有机会再有这种聚会了吧
因为班上的人来自四方
北至槟城
南至柔佛
东至沙巴/砂拉越
但我很珍惜这最后一次的聚会
美中不足的是
并不是全班的人都出席

最近
陷入低潮
原因就是那场败仗
真的对我伤害好大
而且一个星期过两次情人节
别人都在甜蜜蜜的
自己却是孤零零的过
虽说已经是第二十二年了
但感觉还是蛮糟糕的
当然我也有蛮多还是单身的朋友陪伴
我也蛮享受与朋友一起疯的感觉
但.....
就是感到还欠一些东西
不着急
慢慢来吧

希望能早日摆脱这低潮期....

Sunday, February 13, 2011

down down down

arrrrggghhhh...
today is valentine day...
for those who are in relationship...
its gonna is a good day...
for those who single like me..
"eat myself"
but this is not major reason to make me down...
today...
i received two valentine present...
one is given by my friend...
thank you very much...
another one is i just lost a match...
it is a major reason that made me very very very fucking freaking down...
seriously...
this is a match that should not to lose if we really wanna qualify to next round..
but the fact is...
we lost the match...
still want lost 20 marks...
cant blame...
because we also not played well but they played quite well...
besides that...
referee bias on them...even luck also bias on them today...
really 骄兵必败...
so today learned a lesson...
dont underestimate ur opponent...
really is a terrible moment for me...

happy valentine day....

Monday, January 24, 2011

last two weeks

i have ignored my blog for two weeks
due to busy and laziness....=X
ok
lets talks what i do in last two weeks
last two weeks
i keep busy for basketball and fyp
last week is week 1 of my last sem
normally week 1 is nothing to do
but i need to rush my final year project...>.<
besides that
i also attend for our team training on last tuesday and wednesday
it is a great experience and had a great moments with them
because all of us train seriously
just want to get a satisfy result for the tournament 

this basketball tournament opening ceremony hold yesterday
it is also the time for us to play first game
before this game
we keep guessing who is this opponent who purposely come to kampar from kl
and we keep praying this team wont so strong 
therefore we might grab a win
but fate is always give us a joke
there are two national player in our opponent's team
besides that
there are some player that i played with them before
they are the champion in the tournament which i played it
lastly, we played a nice game
we never give up the game although opponent is much more stronger than us
i really felt proud with them
we worth to give a clap
i also played well in this game
i hope i can maintain this standard
because it is the standard i need to
we need to win three game to qualify
add oil together~

Saturday, January 8, 2011

after basketball match

just now watched basketball match
my team played semi final in other tournament
i dint participate this tournament because of study
this tournament held on the weekdays
but i only can back on weekend
and not guarantee that i can back everyweek
in this 2nd quarter 
i know my team is stronger than the opposite
i felt that they can go through final
but
lastly they lose the game
because of the poor defense
i felt like wanna change a jersey to play the game 
because their performance really freaking poor
its a great chance to win a champion
but they dint appreciate it
hope they dint give up
i still want join them to play more and more tournament

i hope that the kampar tournament come as soon as possible
feel like wanna play the game very much
wanna test myself
how is my performance after gaining some experience in last year
i hope we can get a satisfy result
although
its tough
somemore my team still havent get enough player
still thinking who will be my teammate...>.<
i will train more
i want to be better
all the best

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

梦醒时分

梦总有一天结束
2010年最后的三个月
好像一场梦
新的一年
这场梦结束了
这是你的决定
我接受与尊重
衷心地给予祝福
感激你带给我美好的回忆
巾帼枭雄,刑警,囧探查过界,3 idiots,赌神,锦衣卫,情圣,新精武门
还有那难忘的两晚
一切已成过去
只能在回忆中找寻

接下来
要把心情都集中在来临的比赛中
还有FYP...
梦醒了
现实还有很多事情等待我
加油吧

Sunday, January 2, 2011

new year

today is the third day of 2011
a brand new year
recalled what i have done in 2010
i have do nothing
study,basketball,yam cha,snooker,online
that is all of my line
just learned how to ride motor,and and...
learned how to drink and shake shake in club...=.="
but also quite enjoy and appreciate those life
very fun~~~~XD

a brand new year
i changed a hand phone
i go a friend's house to drink beer in new year eve
there is another 3 friends along
one of them wanna sell phone
original price of rm1090 and now sell for rm400
just bought 3 months++
i think its worth gua....=X
i just spent rm100 for this phone
i sell my old phone to my sister for rm250
then my brother sponsor me rm50~XD
thanks to them so much~

i dont have any target for new year
i think i very lame...>.<
actually i should set some targets...
err
really cant think of any target
just enjoy the life first la...=X
wish all of my friends,family pass their life happily and peaceful
i will happy when seeing u all happy~=)

last week
almost everyday busy about fried biscuit with mum...
next week my sister's daughter start school le
dont know my mum will continue fried anot
if continue
i will very suffered bah...@@"
going back kampar on next monday
looking forward to the tournaments~~~~
one aim for semi-final and another aim for second round~
although i hope can get a good result in these tournaments
i prefer to enjoy the progress when playing on the court with my teammates
there is the last chance for us to play together
appreciate it~~~~

last day
when work with mum
my dad asked me again
"did u find a girl friend ya?faster go find one lo...after graduate will very difficult to find ya~"
for this question
just can said wait lo
i also waiting....