Sunday, May 29, 2011

新生活

不知不觉
回到KL已差不多两个星期了
已经慢慢开始适应现在的生活了
开始慢慢渡过那难熬的过渡期
当然
脑袋还会闪过那些美好的回忆
心还会牵挂那些酒肉知己
但是
终归要回到现实
那些已回不去的从前
就把它放在心里
有空时
拿出来回味
也是不错的消遣
朋友们
你们过得还好吗?

这两个星期
只重复几个活动
看戏,上网,玩psp,打篮球,帮忙举办篮球赛,喝茶,睡觉
而且是总在睡
好像要把之前不够睡的都补充回来...@@"
但是我想从这个星期开始应该不能再那样颓废了
因为要开始找工作
而且现在也算是找到一份兼职
我也不希望再这样颓废下去
害怕会颓废惯了
不想做工
我想买车
不做工
哪有能力买呢
只好逼自己勤劳点
明天有面试
不懂会怎样呢
这算是人生中正式的面试吧
尽力而为吧
加油

最近
看到别人都在比赛
但自己只能做旁观者
真的不好受
很想站在那球场上
享受着球迷们的喝彩声
下一个比赛时在六月尾
真的很想快点到
期待
带着一点点恐惧
期待着再次与这班战友并肩作战
恐惧是不懂自己表现如何
尤其是在久疏战阵后
还是那句
尽力而为

还有个小插曲
我的其中一个队友
在某一场比赛中发生意外
结果手断了
骨头都跑了出来
虽然我没亲眼看到那白色的物体
但是看到他需要别人帮他撑着他那淌着血的手与呻吟声时
心是真的在颤抖着.....

Thursday, May 19, 2011

两个重要的人

今天是我离开金宝的第二天
心里还是充满不舍
想的还是在金宝与一群朋友一起疯的画面
想到今后再也不能有这种生活
以后只能不停地工作...>.<
现在正是一段过渡期
我也不懂这段过渡期会有多久的期限

其实最不舍得的还是两个人
在我最悲伤最无助的时候
我总会先想起他们
就算他们不能帮到我什么
但我都会向他们倾诉
和他们谈完后
我的心情就会莫名其妙的变得晴朗
在那一刻
我曾经天真地以为
我们的感情会一直到永远
我真的如此深信着
曾经
他们的房间是我的第二个家
我不时都会去与他们谈天
但因为要兼顾其他人的感受
我只好少去他们家
到最后完全没去找他们
虽然如此
我还是相信
我们的感情能够继续维持的

现在
我们的感情变得没以前那么好了
这是肯定的
以前
我很确定
我在他们心目中绝对占有一席
但现在我可能只是微不足道的一员
心里真的好难受
有开心有不开心
开心的是他们找到了很多知心的朋友
(虽然我早就知道他们的人缘很好)
不开心的是我变得可有可无
我相信这就是人的天性吧
自私

曾经我以为自己会是一个潇洒,豁达的人
其实我不是
尤其是在自己重视的人与物面前
我也是一个小气,自私的人
我讨厌这样的自己
但就是控制不了
最大的问题是
我只会把我的感觉放在心中
之前还能告诉他们
现在谁也不能说
只能在这里写写...

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

最后

上个星期四
趁着大家还有一点空暇的时间
举办了一场班聚
虽说是班聚
但仅仅只是十五人参加
这是美中不足的一点
算了吧
这十五人的聚会
也是蛮有趣的
因为大家都熟悉
彼此都能聊天
不会有谁被冷落了
我想
这真的是最后的聚会了吧
当然
我们还有期盼已久的毕旅
但是心是矛盾的
毕旅的到来
意味着我们相聚的日子正式进入倒计时

上个星期五
与两个篮球死党去高歌"几首"
第一次,也是最后一次
因为已经没机会了
下次
在槟城的下来吉隆坡吧
从九点多唱到两点
其中一位怕我们嫌贵
结果叫了另两位朋友来分担一下费用
但说实在
我真的不太介意
出去玩就准备要花钱了
很感激他
因为他从来都不和我们计较
尤其是钱财方面
搞到我还蛮不好意思

这是大学生涯的最后几个星期
从此
又要回到去大城市的生活
习惯了三年的平静
要重新习惯那习惯了十九年的生活
还有点困难
重点是
我不舍得
不是这边颓废的生活
是在这三年里结下的友谊
曾经的1355,那三个来自柔佛的兄弟,沙巴妹,一起上课的champion group,因篮球而邂逅的每个好朋友....
离别总是难受,难过....
你们给与我的回忆
即使以后我患了老人痴呆症
我也不会忘记~XD

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

week 14

this week is last week in this sem
also the last week in my university life
but this week like study week for me since there is not much classes in this week
i heard many of my friends start to do revision for the final
it made me feel a bit pressure because i still dont have the motivation to start...=\
i totally treat this two weeks as my holidays
kinda enjoy it although it is bored and meaningless...=X
i think i wont have the same time like this after i graduate.....
at last i decided to work after graduate
and will take ACCA by part time
because dont want my mum work so hard for me
it is the time for her to rest and enjoy her life
and i really worry about her high blood pressure....>.<

besides that, i took my medical check report on monday
i got the worst result between my friends...=(
my cholesterol and liver has over the standard level
need take care and control for my diet
but i wonder is it affected by late sleep because i late sleep before the day i went for check
erm...
need to eat more vegetables...eat less meat and egg...@@"
OMG.....
nothing to do...it is for my health
try my best to control it lo
i also considering that should i go for the B型肝炎 injection...
it need to take 3 injections
i do feel scare....................................................>.<
give some suggestion to me please....=(

Saturday, April 9, 2011

random

yesterday i went to ipoh with my classmates
we gathered in mcd at 10am
and we got free mcd breakfast because one of my classmate got coupon
we sing k, watch movie and had buffet for our dinner
the movie we watched called just go with it
it is a nice and funny movie~recommend to watch
i kinda enjoy it and had fun with them
after the day full with craziness, fun and happiness
today i felt emptiness and loneliness
because i just facing my computer and psp
but still appreciate that two basketball buddies date me for brunch and dinner
it had reduce my loneliness 
thank you very much
next week i think i being alone 
because many of friends going back hometown or going to KL for Jogoya's promotion

again, i talking about the nice memories
because the memories is always the best
i really miss that time 
i find them everyday
i have no secret with them
what i also can talk with them
we can talk non-stop
they made me happy even though i am in bad mood
but because of some reasons
i seldom go find them and become dint find them now
therefore something changed and it is some strange between us
how good if the time can go back
but it is impossible......
there is no "if" in this world
the time will never ever go back
why i can so lame....
keep thinking for the past....
i should keep thinking and planning for my future...>.<

in these difficult moment
i really hope somebody besides me...
and my heart fighting for something
hope it will be ok soon
lastly...pray for those soul who need to....
since saw so many unfortunate news in newspaper recently...
pray...

Thursday, March 31, 2011

random

上个星期
与几个同学去马六甲玩
那几天一直都在吃
还去了那儿新的水上乐园
晒到半死
忽然间黑掉很多(虽然本来就很黑)
过了差不多一个星期
背后还在脱皮
好难看呢....>.<
总的来说
这次的旅程还算不错的
虽然有些时候有点被忽略的感觉...=/

在这旅程中
发现到有些东西已变了质
想起以前
再看看现在
只能叹息时间真的能改变好多东西

我真的好想念那段疯狂的日子
我真的以为有些东西真的不会改变的
我.....还是太天真了....
或许重感情的人就会这样吧
是不是应该要改变了呢
不要再那么重感情了...
算了吧
我相信我怎样对人,人家就会怎样对我
对得起自己就好
看开点

就顺其自然吧(好像在逃避现实)

暂时就写到这边吧....

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

an insomnia night

uhhhhhemmm
what is the time now?
almost 5am 
normally i am sleeping on the bed now
but today cant sleep
due to i slept too much yesterday
because of this reason
i skipped two classes   =.=
therefore what am i doing now??
drinking beer and blogging   
first time try to do this
not bad~XD

seem like i have neglected my blog for a long time
actually many things to write
but but but.....
lazy....=X
so what i done for the last few weeks?
first, i got a speaker, external hard disk and a wireless mouse~
these few accessories have cost me RM 400...=.=
but i dint regret at all la...
i quite enjoy with them especially my speaker~~~woohooo~~~NICE!!!!!
second, i have done my mid term test
there are no more mid term test in my life.....(otherwise i failed this sem...)
and now...just left last assignment in this sem and in my life
i no need to do any assignment for my university life
but will for work bah...>.<
third, i tried the mcd breakfast with my friends
really not bad...quite worth....
just go for it~ =D

forth, my kampar open tournament had officially end
these is not a nice memory for me
because i just grab one win in four games
some more the opponent not that strong
just is my team weak...
of course...i not that well also...>.<
in these few games
i earn many experiences
it is not easy to manage one team
i think this can apply in many areas 
not only for basketball but for business
besides that
i also know my weaknesses   >.<
personal skills is not that big problem except my 3 points shooting
the biggest problem is my mentality
it is SO SO SO SO SO bad....
need to improve it a lot...>.<
fifth, in a saturday
i pick up a call from my sister while i am napping
she ask me go back home because my mum going back home from Taiwan that week
but i reject it
since i am tired to go back and i need to busy
but i know these is excuses as i lazy to go back
sorry mum....=(
i am sei sui zai....
my sister also ask me what i busy for?
i answer i busy for assignment but she ask me back said izit i busy for pak tor....
swt.....=.=llllllllll
she said my dad ask she open the photo in my facebook profile and show him who is my girlfriend wor.....
swt again.....=.=lllllllllll

sixth, tsunami has attacked japan lately
human being was so tiny when facing the nature
a normal description:a human life just cheap like an ant life
nothing different
the only different is our family, relatives or friends will sad or even cry for our leave...
future really unpredictable
just appreciate everything u having now
to appreciate u still can breath in this earth
to appreciate u still can smile today
to appreciate u still can cry today
to appreciate u still can say i love u to the one u love
not only ur boyfriend or girlfriend
and also ur family
but....i really cant say these word from my mouth to let them know...
just write here....dad,mum,bro,sis,3 of my sister daughter......
I LOVE U ALL

just now watched a old movie act by andy lau...
it called 爱情梦幻号
i have watched it few times before
but i got the same feeling also
it is a nice, romantic and lam movie.....
sometimes really hope there is someone watch this kind movie with me together....
then i can hug her tightly...=(
never mind...
find her in my dream...XD
i am going to malacca on this thursday with my classmate
hope that this will a fun trip~  =)
it is last few weeks gather with u guys....
no matter is my classmates, coursemates, or my basketball friends.
i always appreciate the time when we together

its time to stop le
what a long blog~~XD
please leave some comments here or chat box when u saw my blog post...
thank you~
take care~   =)